/ audacious

Saturday, September 03, 2005

this is freaking idiotic... i hate myself. why do i have to be like this. i sense this depression will stay for ages. i'm having depression, not pms. so i'm still my normal self. i'm not angry w anyone but myself.
no longer dat cheerful girl anymore. i can laugh at jokes and is my normal self when there's a lot of ppl. but my mind wanders when i'm in my world. i tot i had alr left all dat behind me long ago. why does it hv to come back again?? i use to love the world. but i hate it now. no matter where i wish to escape to, i jux can't escape frm it.

i hate the feeling.
i hate you. yar. YOU. can u jux leave me a lone? sstop bothering me.
this is crazy. why am i crying like mad?why? why does u keep making me cry? i tot u had left for good... why do u hv to come back? its been five months. five months of being myself. happily. ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YOU LA. JUXT GET OUT AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

{11:46:00 pm}